melancholic journey part I

Dear all,
This is my first attempt to create my own blog. As publish in Malaysia-today 12/3/97, at least 80% of bloggers is women, i guess i am doing my part to reduce the deficit.
I am an engineer by profession. Now active in small and medium business. Married with 5 kids. Wife working with goverment (engineer too). First kid, boy 9yrs, twin girls 8yrs, girl 4yrs and boy 2yrs old.
I am not really interested to talk about family that much. But, excites to use this tech to express thots on my career journey, beliefe, worry and future. I always reserve my sorrow, dissapointment and grief. Hopefully from now on GOD will give the blessing for me to write. Importantly, ability to convey my thot and feeling into writing.
Melancholic? Why melancholic? According to oxford dictionary (installed in my pda) melancholic means pensive sadness or expressing sadness. Journey is the journey of my career by choiced. So, am i a failure? Surely nope. I consider myself as a man with a great ambition. None of the ambition has been achieved. But, i am sailing to the direction. Melancholic may attribute from the yacth capabilty, brutal sea, inferiortech and few more external environments leads to depression.